So, it’s already the second week of the fall term at the college I go to and I still have no friends.
I thought that my old roommates and I would hang out all the time but they don’t even text me. How am I supposed to make friends, can someone teach me.
These first weeks of my fall term have been rough. I am rooming with two other people and it’s the worst thing ever. When I started in summer I was excited for the fall to come so that I could have roommates that I am with all the time but it turned out to be terrible. I thought we would be best friends forever but they both already made friend groups but I don’t have any friends. I don’t even have my own room to cry in. Where the fuck am I supposed to cry.
One day this week I had texted my best friend from my hometown and asked her how she was doing in college and if she made any friends. She said yeah, I made friends fast! This hit me like a bullet. I can’t help but have a small part of me think that her new friends are going to replace me. When I heard that she had made a best friend I burst into tears. Luckily my roommates were in class so that I could ball my eyes out. It just made me realize how lonely I was and how much I missed my friends from high school.
I wish that making friends was easier. I don’t know why I suck at it. I snapchat my friend from home all the time saying like oh great day with no friends again. They all think I’m joking but I am actually serious. I literally have no friends here. I literally just went in the bathroom and sat there with the shower running crying because I feel so lonely and was thinking about how at the beginning of orientation they give you the statistics of students that get depression when they enter college and I was thinking that I’ll count for that percentage. It’s hard being lonely and I just wish people would give me a chance.